Thought #1: Me and the Examiner. Not. I’ve made my decision to publish infrequently in order to keep my webpages active, but I’m at a standstill. What’s next, you think? What direction I am headed in now? Resounding silence from my creative spirit. Of course.
Thought #2: I just looked at a site which compiled hundreds of freelance writing gigs. I was immediately exhausted. Totally exhausted. One look, and you’d understand what I mean.
Thought #3: Why does there have to be a 2-week hiatus until the next Once Upon a Time episode? They’re torturing us fans with suspense and longing over here. (loud growls from fellow spectators)
Thought #4 (a big one): What do they mean, they don’t want any outside ideas for Merlin? One of the best TV shows out there today and they won’t even consider new scriptwriters or even stupendous ideas for the plot! Like mine, for example.
Now that Arthur and Gwen are married (thank you, season 4), the romantic spotlight has to be shifted significantly on either Merlin or the Knights of the Round Table. First idea: Gwen has a job opening. For a lady-in-waiting/servant. Well, she was Morgana’s servant for years, after all. And if Arthur has Merlin, why couldn’t Gwen have a lady-in-waiting? After all, someone else needs to find out about Merlin’s secret, provide some sort of romantic touch to the story. Perhaps this mysterious new female figure could be Merlin’s romance? No worries about royal status. She even become friends with Merlin and Gaius, be interested in magic.
Or if this new girl turns out to be another traitor like Agravaine, we could look to the knights for an uplift. Gawaine is pretty famous for his part in the Arthurian legend about Lady Ragnell. I can totally see Merlin‘s Gawaine forced to marry an enchanted beastly woman on a matter of honor and then find true love when the spell is broken through the right actions of his own just heart. Or what about Tristan? Is he going to become a Knight of Camelot? Don’t forget Mordred. Not only does he know Merlin’s secret and his secret identity, he’s friends with Morgana. Even in the “original” legends, Mordred spelled trouble in bold, big letters. Then there’s the matter of the baby girl dragon, and Lancelot’s death. I’ve been thinking about how Merlin deviates from the basics of many Arthurian legends but sticks to the true fundamentals, like how Merlin’s weakness is his compassionate heart or how Arthur’s weakness is his tendency to trust people too deeply and surely. It’s a great show. Season 5 is going to be big. But I still want to be a part of Merlin somehow. Despite the indirect rejection. Because I have a LOT of great ideas for it. Hmph.
Thought #6: I really have to start thinking seriously about the novels I want to write. Creating sub-plots for a TV show are just the tip of the iceberg that is my creativity wanting to break out and melt over my mind. I have awesome ideas (well, they are!) for a Helen of Troy story intertwined with the Iliad and the Odyssey stories and another for retelling the Greek myth of Persephone and Hades. I know the finished product could be splendid if I work hard. I just don’t want to mess up, or worse, find out that I’m no novelist, just some pathetic review writer. I want to be able to create. Creating something of that magnitude, like a book, is as momentous as child-bearing. You’re creating new life, a new world. You’re building a brand-new door that other people, including yourself, will be able to open forever and see into your mind, your soul, and the souls of the characters you’ve resurrected or brought to life. It’s magnificent, that feeling of being and making and modeling…art brings a sense of purpose to a person. It’s…magnetizing. But I have to get over my fears and try…at least brainstorm. And who knows…maybe once I start, I won’t be able to stop.
Thought #7: I’m done thinking and analyzing for now. I want to read. Maybe write. Thanks again, NetGalley, for thrilling new reads currently unpublished. 😉