Is this good-bye?

Unfortunately for me…the Examiner is staffed by a bunch of sniveling cheats.  And that being said, today is the day I found out that my monthly pay from the Examiner, cir. $35, is going to be cut by more than 50%.  It all started with last week’s upgrades and changes to the site.

Retrospect: the Examiner not only has cheated on me by paying me (approximately) 65/100 of a cent per pageview, it has also paid me only $1 per “locally relevant” article.  And since I focus on doing book and movie reviews, I usually would insert information about where to find the material I was reviewing on a local level.  Somehow, they refuse to accept that anymore.  They are taking away that “$1 per article” solidity from me.  Instead, they want now to force me to write what THEY want me to write.  And I cannot—will not—accept that.

So…in light of how I’ll be paid around $10 a month for pageviews alone, I’m thinking that…I should stop.  2 years and 3 months and 590 reviews (in total) later, I stand on the edge of the writing precipice.  What should I do now?  Of course, I’m devastated how the Examiner, the “lying cheating snake in the grass,” has turned on me like this out of the blue.  I tortured out-of-city, out-of-state, and out-of-country readers enough with that final line at the end of all my reviews, book or movie.  I alone found the courage to contact authors directly about my reviews of their novels and accept their feedback.  I attracted the majority of publicity to my webpages.  And I have slaved, virtually or not, for 2 years at this writing.  This fruitless, dedicated, objective occupation that has caused me more pain than bliss.  And now what?

I cry when I’m angry.  Yes, just like Bella in the Twilight series.  It took me a while to figure out, but it’s a fact now.  I’m very angry about this conclusion.  Every week for…years, I published 6 articles/reviews.   For the first time, I have to come to terms with the fact that my main source of income is gone and I must decide if I want to keep writing for free.  Because ten dollars is like beggars’ cash.  Not worth spit.  Not worth my hourly toil and my outside reading.  And I don’t know what to do now that I’ve lost the discipline I gained in this weekly task and my determination to succeed.  I won the battles over payment many times, but I’ve definitely lost the war now.  And the worst part of losing is…I no longer feel like writing anymore… 😦

Natalie Gorna

Updates again…

Just a heads up…I quit working for We Got This Covered, so I guess my big opportunity to become a paparazzi reporter just passed me by.  😀  No, I’m kidding.  I was only an entertainment news “reporter,” and not a very creative one at that.  I was merely retelling some other writer’s news scoops, which is not very complimentary (see this blog entry).  And their pay was…dismal.  Much worse than the Examiner’s pay rates, which are so meager already.

Now, I’m stuck writing for the Examiner again, with no tutoring prospects in sight.  And after yesterday’s entry…and they not paying me for a week’s worth of reviews…I am still very upset by the whole business of writing.  I guess I’ll have to console myself by reading more books…

Natalie Gorna

Updates of May 11th

I got a job…another writing job.  No, I did not quit my Examiner jobs, I just added yet another low-paying online newspaper to my list of employers.  This time…I’m a reporter.  Kind of.   I would define my new gig as regurgitating information: I digest other reporters’ scoops on entertainment news stories by reading them thoroughly and then I “throw up” my analysis of the story by paraphrasing.  We Got This Covered is the lucky business who got to borrow my writing skills, although they seem to be doing well without me.  Anyway…now my weekdays and workdays (which are equivalent to each other) are overwhelming.  I can’t separate time for “relaxation” and time for work, i.e. reading, writing, etc.  Oh well…all I can do is my best.  We Got This Covered has been added to my links, and I’m also going to provide a link to a webpage containing an archive of all my work/publications for the site so far.

Natalie Gorna